Hmmm, the bulk of the team leaves tomorrow. Can you say "Pit of Despair?"
[-sigh-]
I need to press on. Trust in God.
If you didn't know already, I am officially going to Columbia in the fall. Woo hoo! Mmmm, did I write about this in my last post? Errrror. So some things I am doing in the next few weeks:
- finding an affordable flat...in NYC
- finding a job at Columbia that will pay the bills
- closing up my life here in Berlin
- saying good-bye to people and students here
- getting gifts for supporters and family
I think that is only a third of my To-Do List, which, btws, I wrote on Thursday because I was bored! Ugh. Transitions are awesome but sad and tiring and busy and stressful (which I detest!) and emotional. [-sigh-] I used to be super detail-oriented and efficient (and I think I still can be), but I feel like I have discovered that I do not have to be that way to get things done. It only made me feel very stressed out which made living life terrible. Hmm, this is all sounding very stream of consciousness (which I ♥). Anyways, I only make To-Do Lists now if I know that I have like thousands of things to do, like I do now.
I don't know if this is stream of consciousness. Maybe it is just me typing what I am thinking out-loud. Whenever I say what I am thinking, it normally (for those listening) turns out to be hilarious. I just see it for what it is. I am always observing and wondering and thinking and dreaming and assuming and observing. I can see why maybe women are very complex individuals. Maybe. Whenever I think about myself, I think that I am very simple. And then people tell me otherwise. And then I journal and see that I have so many different levels.
Full stop.
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